Monday, March 8, 2010


Sometimes we can be wrong about ourselves, and, sometimes, we realize we didn't know ourselves as well as we thought we did. By we I mean me, I didn't know myself as well as I thought I did. In fact, I think somewhere along the way I lost myself somehow. In my last post I talked about my impatience, and how I need to work on that. In some ways impatience is one of my poorest qualities, but, as it turns out, impatience can also help me out from time to time.

For most of my adult life I have been putting things off, mostly active things, until I loose weight. This has lasted for years, and the only thing that has changed is my weight, in the wrong direction. For some reason, training for the bike tour flipped a switch. For a month I have been challenging myself, and succeeding. I am proud of myself for that. However, for the past year I have been thinking about running. Inspired by her, and her, and my friend Meghan I have not been able to get this idea out of my head. I told myself I had to wait, I had to lose more weight, I had to be more fit, I had to be more. This weekend one word popped into my head. Why? Why did I have to wait, hadn't I been waiting long enough? Life has been passing me by while I wait, well, no longer.

This morning, I ran. Wait, let me rephrase that. I jogged. I went online and found a from couch to 5K training plan and I jogged for 1 minute and walked for 2, for a total of 20 minutes. It was hard, but not impossible. On wednesday I will do it again, and in two months I will run my own 5k. In two months, I will run longer and faster than I ever have before. As it turns out, someday, was today.


Ms. Caddywumpus said...

Heck ya!
I used to glare at people running and call them "Stupid, happy fit people" out loud. Then I turned into one (sort of), and you know what? I don't ever want to go back to glaring...

20 minutes is a great start - keep it up. And in your honour I'm heading out today to do my own run (speaking of off the wagon...)

Sarah said...

Sounds great! It always starts with "why not", doesn't it? My last why not led to 11-mile each way bike commuting on a fairly regular spring-fall basis. No, wait - I think the last why not led to a year of 3x a week fanfic comic posting.

I'd advise to watch out for "why not" becoming "I have to keep doing that":-) I have to watch out for just exercising because I'm the obsessive/anxious type.

Rita said...

Hey there my dear, I stumbled upon you on facebook and found my way here. I just about died, it's crazy how similar things end up when you head down different paths, I'm a sahm, just one little girl though and live out in alberta now, (my hubbie is rcmp so we move about) I just became a runner last year saying the same dang things, like my knees are going to collapse under the weight of my giant rear end, and it didn't. I'm training for a marathon now and started running in June I think, with that very same 5k program. You got this, cuz if you're half determined as you used to be you're golden ;)You can find me over at: it's only fair if I get to read yours, you get to look at mine.