As I mentioned in my last post, on a whim I purchased a Boot Camp DVD set. I was excited because it came with a stabilizer disk, a weight ball and dyna bands. "This workout won't be boring...." I thought to myself. I was right, it wasn't boring. My boot camp torture session went by very quickly.
The "host" is a Swedish woman named Tanya...a very perky woman with a six pack and a very even tan. I remembered Jen P's advice, and decided to curse at liberty, should the spirit move me to do so. And it did. In fact, Tanya was so perky that the spirit outright demanded I curse at this smiling hell spawn, and curse I did. Not only did it make me feel better, but cussing out Tanya and the parents that unleashed this force of evil on the world made me forget, for a brief shining moment, that I couldn't feel my shoulders.
Now please don't think that the above rant is describing my first and only experience with Tanya. On the contrary, I think this workout will be very good for me. In fact, the only reason I didn't do it more than once this week was because my middle names are actually "wimpy wussy pants" and it took me all week to psych myself up. Tomorrow Tanya and I will meet again, and I have been making a mental list of some of cuss words I haven't been able to say out loud since my eldest learned to talk. So thank you Tanya, for trying shrinking my ass and giving me the freedom to be vulgar again.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Weigh In - Week One
I must admit, I was a little nervous stepping on the scale today. I just really wanted some sort of justification for my decision, and I got it. This week I am down 5 pounds! I know that this is not going to be the norm, but damn, it feels good this week.
My goal for this coming week is to add in two sessions with a boot camp DVD I have purchased, along with walking Rowdy. The boot camp thing was an impulse purchase, and I really hope it doesn't kill me.
My goal for this coming week is to add in two sessions with a boot camp DVD I have purchased, along with walking Rowdy. The boot camp thing was an impulse purchase, and I really hope it doesn't kill me.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
What!! I have a blog? You don't say....
Yeah, I've been missing in action for a little over a month, but I have been busy. You know, with the Christmas, and the eating, and the baking and the eating and the wrapping and....well, you get the point. The fact remains that since my last post I have continued to have motivation issues. I decided that I really needed to think, and figure out what I needed to get going, to move and to continue on my quest to make a healthy lifestyle a habit, a reality.
Sooo.....I put my Weight Watchers membership on hold. I know, I know, this seems counter-intuitive, but I think this is exactly what I need. You see, although there are many things I love about Weight Watchers, there is one huge issue I disagree with them on, and that is their view of food. WW believes that food should be only calories, that if you remain within a certain number of calories you will lose weight, and they are correct, to a point, but.....
I believe food is so much more than the number of calories it contains. I have been doing some reading on food, and what our body recognizes and what it needs, and I had begun to change how our family eats. We make our own butter (which is evil, but scrumptious) and bread. I try not to buy processed foods, or foods that have lots of preservatives, colours and other weird stuff. This summer I plan to make seasonal preserves and one of my goals is to start making my own cheese. I believe that food should be natural, sans all that crap manufactures put in it so it has a shelf life. I believe fat free cheese is an abomination (it doesn't even melt) and one should never, ever, make guacamole with over cooked asparagus. I realized last week that although WW had worked very well for me in the past, maybe it was time to take a break, to see if I could work without WW.
So here I am, almost done my first week on my own and I feel pretty good. I am still journaling, and drinking my water, and even measuring out high fat ingredients. I am walking Rowdy every day and he and I are both happier for it. I think that I have grown up a bit, that this time around I don't need a stranger looking at the scale for me to motivate me and make me accountable. This time I think being accountable to myself will actually be enough.
Sooo.....I put my Weight Watchers membership on hold. I know, I know, this seems counter-intuitive, but I think this is exactly what I need. You see, although there are many things I love about Weight Watchers, there is one huge issue I disagree with them on, and that is their view of food. WW believes that food should be only calories, that if you remain within a certain number of calories you will lose weight, and they are correct, to a point, but.....
I believe food is so much more than the number of calories it contains. I have been doing some reading on food, and what our body recognizes and what it needs, and I had begun to change how our family eats. We make our own butter (which is evil, but scrumptious) and bread. I try not to buy processed foods, or foods that have lots of preservatives, colours and other weird stuff. This summer I plan to make seasonal preserves and one of my goals is to start making my own cheese. I believe that food should be natural, sans all that crap manufactures put in it so it has a shelf life. I believe fat free cheese is an abomination (it doesn't even melt) and one should never, ever, make guacamole with over cooked asparagus. I realized last week that although WW had worked very well for me in the past, maybe it was time to take a break, to see if I could work without WW.
So here I am, almost done my first week on my own and I feel pretty good. I am still journaling, and drinking my water, and even measuring out high fat ingredients. I am walking Rowdy every day and he and I are both happier for it. I think that I have grown up a bit, that this time around I don't need a stranger looking at the scale for me to motivate me and make me accountable. This time I think being accountable to myself will actually be enough.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
When you put your life on the inter-web......
You may get calls from your mother that go like this (please keep in mind I was over tired and a bit cranky):
Me: Hello
Mom: Hello dear....I read your blog.....
Okay.
So, did you?
Did I what?
Get up early this morning?
No.
Why not?
Because Frances woke me up at 4:30am.
Well, you can't reach your goals unless.....
Look Mom, Frances woke me up early, I had trouble getting back to sleep so I was really tired so I ignored the alarm and I'm going to work out tonight so GET OFF MY BACK.
Okay, I was just checking.....
We then proceeded to talk for another 20 minutes about other stuff, so there was no hard feelings. I think. Nevertheless, if you put your life on the inter-web, people will call you on it. And if they call you on it, you may inadvertently (on purpose) bite their heads off. Sorry Mom.
Me: Hello
Mom: Hello dear....I read your blog.....
Okay.
So, did you?
Did I what?
Get up early this morning?
No.
Why not?
Because Frances woke me up at 4:30am.
Well, you can't reach your goals unless.....
Look Mom, Frances woke me up early, I had trouble getting back to sleep so I was really tired so I ignored the alarm and I'm going to work out tonight so GET OFF MY BACK.
Okay, I was just checking.....
We then proceeded to talk for another 20 minutes about other stuff, so there was no hard feelings. I think. Nevertheless, if you put your life on the inter-web, people will call you on it. And if they call you on it, you may inadvertently (on purpose) bite their heads off. Sorry Mom.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
No Peace in Death
I realize I have not posted in a while, not because I haven't been doing well (1.5 pounds down in the past two weeks), but because I have a post that has been nagging at me, and, frankly, I don't want to write it. On the other hand, until I get it out of the way, I won't be motivated to write anything else, so here it goes.
On October 4th of this year, my 24 year old cousin died. Well, he didn't just die, he chose to die, and my mind has been fighting that decision for almost two months now. The first month was really bad, I basically kept the girls alive and that was it. This month has been better, but my motivation can be pretty low at times. What really pisses me off about this is that I know that if I start working out regularly, if I eat according to program all the time I will not only lose weight, but I will be better equipped to deal with this and come out the other side a better person. The thing is, I can't seem to work up enough momentum to give myself a shot at any sort of work out routine.
The second problem is I am having major issues accepting my cousin's suicide as fact. Nobody in our family saw this coming he had no known mental issues. He was so kind, so loving and came from a family who loved and supported him. Despite this, he decided that death was easier than life and left us to deal with the aftermath, and frankly, I am not dealing with it very well.
So this is where my head space is. There is not a day when I do not think about him, pray for him and his family and grieve the loss he has inflicted upon us. There is also not a day when I do not think about what I need to do to get better, to be healthy, to become stronger. Having said that, my goal for this week is to keep trying, to build up that momentum and then keep going. I will keep setting that alarm for 6am and tell myself I will get up, I will work out, and I will do that over and over until it becomes a habit. I am not sure what will happen then, but I will cross that bridge when I get to it. One step at a time.
On October 4th of this year, my 24 year old cousin died. Well, he didn't just die, he chose to die, and my mind has been fighting that decision for almost two months now. The first month was really bad, I basically kept the girls alive and that was it. This month has been better, but my motivation can be pretty low at times. What really pisses me off about this is that I know that if I start working out regularly, if I eat according to program all the time I will not only lose weight, but I will be better equipped to deal with this and come out the other side a better person. The thing is, I can't seem to work up enough momentum to give myself a shot at any sort of work out routine.
The second problem is I am having major issues accepting my cousin's suicide as fact. Nobody in our family saw this coming he had no known mental issues. He was so kind, so loving and came from a family who loved and supported him. Despite this, he decided that death was easier than life and left us to deal with the aftermath, and frankly, I am not dealing with it very well.
So this is where my head space is. There is not a day when I do not think about him, pray for him and his family and grieve the loss he has inflicted upon us. There is also not a day when I do not think about what I need to do to get better, to be healthy, to become stronger. Having said that, my goal for this week is to keep trying, to build up that momentum and then keep going. I will keep setting that alarm for 6am and tell myself I will get up, I will work out, and I will do that over and over until it becomes a habit. I am not sure what will happen then, but I will cross that bridge when I get to it. One step at a time.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Nemesis, Thy Name is Vanilla
On Saturday I went to weigh in. Usually, I have a pretty good sense of how these things will go, I normally know when I will be down, and, if I look through my food journal, I for sure know when I will be up. This week I thought for sure I would be down. Alas, that was not the case, for I stayed exactly the same.
Upon refection, however, I really shouldn't have been so surprised. It may have had something to do with the fact that most of my activity consisted of walking the dog, the chips and ice cream I had on Friday, or the fact that I went from eating no fiber for five days to a decent amount of fiber, which brought everything to a GRINDING HALT. I will not elaborate on this last point because it's icky.
The question is, what now? Well, the first thing I have to do is stop bringing large containers of ice cream into the house because it's delicious and calls my name and I cannot resist it. I know this about myself, and have known this for a while, the only reason I continue to do this, frankly, is because I'm an idiot. The second thing I have to do (and have done for the past two mornings) is get up before the girls, go to the ellipse and get in a sweaty workout. I really hate sweating, so this one will take more effort. The third thing I want to do this week is to break out the yoga DVD I bought forever ago and, I don't know, maybe ACTUALLY DO IT.
As for my goals last week, I actually did pretty well. My water consumption was okay (though clearly not okay enough), I was active everyday but Sunday (though clearly not active enough), and the sodium thing, I'm pretty sure it's been taken care of.
On the whole, I feel good about the week ahead.
Upon refection, however, I really shouldn't have been so surprised. It may have had something to do with the fact that most of my activity consisted of walking the dog, the chips and ice cream I had on Friday, or the fact that I went from eating no fiber for five days to a decent amount of fiber, which brought everything to a GRINDING HALT. I will not elaborate on this last point because it's icky.
The question is, what now? Well, the first thing I have to do is stop bringing large containers of ice cream into the house because it's delicious and calls my name and I cannot resist it. I know this about myself, and have known this for a while, the only reason I continue to do this, frankly, is because I'm an idiot. The second thing I have to do (and have done for the past two mornings) is get up before the girls, go to the ellipse and get in a sweaty workout. I really hate sweating, so this one will take more effort. The third thing I want to do this week is to break out the yoga DVD I bought forever ago and, I don't know, maybe ACTUALLY DO IT.
As for my goals last week, I actually did pretty well. My water consumption was okay (though clearly not okay enough), I was active everyday but Sunday (though clearly not active enough), and the sodium thing, I'm pretty sure it's been taken care of.
On the whole, I feel good about the week ahead.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Water
One of my goals this week was to consume most of my liquids in the form of water. I did this because, well, I usually prefer my liquids to come in the artificial fizzy variety. Is this healthy? No. Natural? Again, no. Delicious? Yes sir. Considering my attitude on the matter, I figure I need some incentive in the form of the MOST AWESOME WATER GLASS EVER!!
Drink your water!
Yup, that should do it.
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